A few decades ago, when I was a young man, I was told, repeatedly, that I had a "dry" sense of humor, and when pressed it was explained to me as a "British" sense of humor. I didn't know what they meant then, and I don't know quite what it means now, decades later. Webster's Unabridged Dictionary has been no help at all nor has The Encyclopedia Britannica, which one would think would be the most helpful of all, but nada.

Be that as it may, I know what I like, and over time I've come to like "The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy" series by Douglas Adams. Thrashing around through the tall weeds of YouTube, I stumbled across a copy of the audiobook version, read by Mr. Adams himself. The ravages of age have made reading a less pleasurable experience than it had been formerly, so I glommed on to the audio version as if it were manna from heaven - which it may have been, given the current state of my eyesight as compared to former times.

I reasoned that, being read by the author of the series himself, this is what Adams intended the books to be read like, with all the proper inflections and pronunciations as he intended them to be. That's a rare thing in the audiobook world, it being that most of them are read by professional narrators. Those narrators may be very good, and very professional, but they are decidedly NOT the original author, and so must make the odd faux pas here and there during the reading. My assumption is that the original author is less likely to make such tiny misreadings.

So, without further ado or bloviation, I present to you "The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy" in all of it's original read glory.

The original book in the series:




The second book in the series, "The Restaurant at the end of the Universe":




The third book in the series, which was originally conceived of as a trilogy... so this ought to have been the final book, but was not, "Life, The Universe, and Everything":




Since "trilogy" turned out to be an increasingly inaccurate mislabeling, there is more to come in the next post.

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Narcissism:


If Jesus taught us to love one another, to have mercy and compassion for each other, and to help one another in times of need; expecting nothing in return, and if Jesus taught us to be humble and meek patient and kind, slow to anger quick to forgive, and if you believe all of this then you know I've described the "spirit" of Jesus. A Holy Spirit.


If you take a look at narcissism what you'll see is the exact opposite of this. You will see the an "anti-chirst spirit."

A spirit that is against all things Christ.

They don't forgive. 
Make false testimonies.
They are selfish and self absorbed.
They are not patient.
They are proud.
They do not care for or about others; unless it's to make themselves look "good."
They are not meek.
They are not kind.

They are the opposite of the Spirit of Christ.

Anything that is the opposite of Jesus is the "antichrist spirit."


I was given some advice to use my sword to cut right through the bullspit.


This is my first swing.

The video is about the OSS, CIA, Operation Paper Clip, the covert war against Russia using NAZI Werewolves, and Operation Gladio. We have all heard about the rumors of drug dealings by the CIA but the Why Files tells us why and even explains what bank was used to hide the vast sums of money... There is much information you can either believe or disregard however if all true we live in a very sick lying deceitful world in way to many ways.

Quote:Operation Gladio | How The Mob Financed The CIA's Secret Army After World War II, the CIA hatched a covert plan to stop Soviet expansion in Europe. They created a secret army, recruiting an unexpected mix of allies. This clandestine operation, known as Gladio, spanned across all NATO countries. What began as a defensive strategy quickly morphed into something far more sinister. Innocent civilians became casualties in a shadow war fought on European streets.

A short deep dive into the fictional Nixon film 'Secret Honor' in which a plausible case is made for the scandalized former president as a puppet, not king, controlled by a shadowy plutocratic 'Council of 100' that converges around the secret society retreat at... none other than the Bohemian Grove.




I had never heard of this "fictional" 1984 film. Spot on with the quote, "...as usual we won the war, but lost our freedoms. The true American way."

Regardless of the official story many have suspected all along it was either Mossad or Saudi Arabia who financed and pushed for 911. Looks like a new finger is pointing at Saudi involvement.

My best friend throughout my life was actually my cousin. He had this saying about his belly when he had a pot belly for a while. He would say, as he stuck his big ol belly out, "Look, I've got dickeedoo disease. My belly stickin out further than my dickeedoo."

He was a trip. He had all kinds of funny sayings like this.

I was getting up to take some medicine and I started to rub my belly, and itch it like a bear waking from hibernation, and I noticed my belly felt like I was about 3 or 4 months along in a pregnancy my belly was so bloated.

I'm certainly not washing my clothes on my tummy or anything, but normally my belly is pretty cut, or at least lean and tone. 

As I was chuckling to myself and scratching my big ol belly, I thought of the dickeedoo disease. Thought it would be a fitting title.


Anywho,
I had a large portion of my colon removed 5 years back now. There's something I've noticed every time I eat any dairy now. I had a bowl of Life cereal before I had laid down earlier. It's usually a lot worse if it's milk that I've consumed, but cheese has the same affect.

This isn't something I've noticed before in my life, but it may have been something I didn't really pick up on before my stomach issues.

I'm wondering if this is something like lactose intolerance. If it is its new to me.

I have noticed a big change in milk since around 2020, and that's that all the milk I've been buying has been expiring way before the expiration dates. Sometimes a week+ before the date.

I don't know if that is the issue, but I sure have noticed that after having one bowl of cereal it looks like I'm pregos. After two bowls of milk I've got full blown dickeedoo disease. 

Anyone else getting bloated like a beach ball after eating dairy? The milk being weird about expiring way too soon has me questioning what the cause is.

A doctor would tell me it's just from the surgery. 

I'd like to know if anyone is experiencing something similar, or if I've just become lactose intolerant. 

Does this mean I'm racist towards milk now?

I honestly believe the veil has lifted.

I had a very similar experience to this, more than twice. It is hard to explain, but if you had walked into that room I firmly believe that you would have sensed it, and you would have known immediate what was in there.

This was too good not to share, as it aligns everything I've been trying to say.

X. The man with x-ray eyes (1963)

This film was on as I was nestling down after a pounding rain storm all day. I love these old sci-fi flicks, but had never seen this one before.

The movie is about a doctor performing an experiment they call "experiment X." Now, thos experiment X has popped up everywhere and so this really caught my attention. 

This doctor is working on an eye drop that enables him to see through clothes, casino cards, and eventually even through skin.

I sort of chuckled a bit at this idea because this is something else I've always been saying. 
That I can see right through people. With that I figured I'd give this movie a try.

It's a little creepy, kinda weird, and a total B-film, with some decent actors.

BTW, all kinds of illuminati symbolism in it, and it's just getting started.

Enjoy


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I just finished the film

HOLE
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CRAP

This movie could not have been more "illuminated." Full of symbolisms. Full of subliminal messages, and it could not be more obvious who is behind this one.

If you love your conspiracy and are interested in all things illuminati, then I highly recommend watching this one.

Especially the end. The last few sentences of the film are that hard truth they speak in movies sometimes. Where they reveal "secrets."

I dare any conspiracy theorists to watch this and tell me I'm wrong.

5 stars for content and messages

I'd like to share an insight that most will never see; thankfully. 

I want to tell you what it's like for someone living with Borderline personality disorder. 

I do not wish to show you this from a mostly scientific standpoint. I'd like to share my own thoughts as I have been carrying this load through my life.

Since I have come to completely see the sham of the entire medical field, and having studied psychology a good bit, I do not wish to explain what this is using only their terms. 

I'm going to say it easy enough for a child to understand. 

First off:
Trauma 

Trauma, especially at an early age can really mess up someone's mind. We don't really fully understand Trauma and all that is going on.

One traumatic experience at a young age will completely rewire a brain. All at once. 

Then we have recurring trauma. When someone is Enduring the same trauma over and over.

This really messes up the mind. 

Now say, a child is raised with a completely controlling mother and father. So controlling that every single thing you do is micromanaged and berated because "you're not good enough to do it exactly like they want it." This child can never live up to any expectations their "parents" desire.

And so they abuse by telling their child how much of a "piece of shit" they are because they didn't pick up their toys "right." These types of "parents" will even ridicule a child's eating habits. Don't smack, don't bite the spoon, don't use your right hand, don't cough don't blink-----basically everything this child does is "wrong" and they are "stupid."


This may not seem like much, but what is happening here is the mind of this child is being programmed to believe ALL OF THIS.

"Parents" like this will make a child feel like every thought they have is stupid. Every idea. Every truth this child sees is wrong. And they are right. Always. 

When it comes time this child grows up and starts making decisions for themselves, no matter what decisions this child makes, they are always wrong. And stupid. 

This child who is wanting to grow up and make their own decisions are being programmed to think that they don't know how to make decisions. Any decisions this child makes is going to destroy because their incapable of making any "good" decisions. 

This gets programmed into the decision making part of the brain that's starting to really develop around 7 years old. This programming isn't just programmed into the mind. No. This programming comes with experienceS. This has been programmed into the DNA at this point.

These "parents" have actually created a non functioning human. Growing up believing that they are incapable. At all things.

This person grows up and develops either bpd or narcissism as a defense mechanism. The numbers show the vast majority of people who experience this develop narcissism. 

BPD is known as "failed narcissism."

You see, the mind of this child is trying to protect itself. Narcissism helps keep this child from being hurt by the awful things being said and done to them. These individuals detach their emotions when it comes to others.

Consider BPD as the opposite of this.

We protect ourselves with our emotions. BPD requires an IQ of at least 136.

The part of the brain that controls emotions gets broken from the continuous trauma, and so instead of having just a little bit of anger or sadness, and yes on the flip side---joy and happiness. We get flooded with emotions that we have to learn to control, when the very part of the brain that controls emotions is BROKEN due to abuse of the mind. Simply "controlling" your emotions is impossible. 

It's like telling a person to hammer in a nail with no hammer.

These individuals feel very deeply. They love deeply due to the excess of emotions. We are empaths. We feel other people's emotions. We can actually feel other people's pain and joys. We can both laugh and cry with others as they laugh or cry for themselves. This makes us great comforters to others. We can connect with others on a deeper level than the 99% of the rest, because one thing we know is empathy.

Empathy is the super power of the person with BPD.

We can feel vibrational shifts.
Like standing in a crowd of people, listening and observing, and one single person gets offended, even showing only the tiniest physical signs, we can pick up on the tiniest shift in vibrations and know exactly when someone gets "hurt" no matter how good they are at "hiding it."

So, we do, in fact, love very deeply. 

The toughest battle I have felt is a broken heart. A broken spirit. These things crushed me as a child. I developed under this hurting. I have cried an ocean of tears in my time here. Both for myself, and as equally and as passionately for others as well.

If you're around me, and you are hurting, I am hurting. If you drop tears, I drop tears. No one has ever gone through that "alone" when I was even in the vaccinity. I've done thos total strangers I've walked by.

This is my blessing, as well as my burden. 

After Enduring a lifetime of this, and growing up in a time when we had none of thos information, and no one even understood BPD was back then, I have dealt with one thing most of all.

Suicidal ideation. 

I have battled punching my own clock my entire life.

I couldn't even tell you the number of times I've considered it. And almost went for it.


Carrying the hurt, that my life started with, and being raised under constant abuse, and yeah, there was physical abuse as well, but living this a entire  lifetime has been exhausting. I have been saying "I'm so tired" since before I even became a man.




Fortunately I have been strong. It would be weak of me to do anything like that. Had I not had faith in God my entire* life, I wouldn't be writing this for you.


The truth is I am sad. Watching this world, and how people treat one another, how they fight over the pettyist of things, and how badly people can hurt one another for something as mundane as ego, has been too much for this man's heart. And I uvave felt that pain my whole life, Rogue-Nation. This isn't to say that I haven't had good moments or times of joy in my life. Because I have. Lots of them. But not nearly enough. Because of the pettiness of "man." So many moments just robbed of their good pleasure, all because of an ego or pride or greed or hate.

In my eyes, this has been ridiculous from day one.

And it's gotten worse with that hate and violence. Everyone's so ready to "kill, steal, or destroy." And they all believe they have a good reason.

What I wanted was a life of peace and happiness. I figured put very quickly that this was a pipe dream and I would never obtain it in this world and this life.

I have learned to cling to the Lord. That has Proven to be More than enough to sustain me. And even though I do feel this great sadness for this world, I do feel a joy and a comfort knowing I have faith, and what my faith is in.

I won't preach, but to the reader, yes, that has always been my saving Grace.


For one reason and one reason alone, I will stick around until my God punches my clock. He's done saved my life too many times for me to not think there is a purpose for having me around. This is my Comfort. I'll stay for Him.


I had also simply wanted "love."

This was something I had never really felt before.

I tried romantic love so many times and failed so many times that I just never found that "love" I was looking for.


Until I truly found God; after searching more and more for him.


Without that, RN.....I would be gone.


With all this said, I am at peace. I am not happy, by any means, at least not at anything I am seeing. But, I am not bitter. I still have that same love that I've always had for others in my heart. This is how I know I've Overcome.


I may sound like a child here with all of this, but this is the purest, and most honest I have ever been with this.

I have faced my demon, ladies and gentlemen. 

And I've won.

Cheers

This is life with BPD. 
Thanks for reading. 
I hope this may help someone someday. That's the only reason I've shared this.

Be blessed.

Waterfall Wednesday Thread!

Mardalsfossen falls in Norway is a tiered waterfall consisting of two large drops and several smaller ones lower down for a total fall of 2,116 ft.




Kaieteur Falls in Guyana: 741 feet tall, one of the world's largest single-drop waterfalls, one of the most powerful waterfalls on the planet. Very remote location, rich biodiversity, eco-tourism hotspot. The gorge below the falls was the site of a part of a British research expedition (BBC 3-part miniseries "Lost Land of the Jaguar", 2008) conducted in the Guyana rainforest in an attempt to document the pristine rainforest in the southern part of the country.







Tugela Falls in South Africa's Drakensberg Mountains known as The Amphitheater. World's second tallest, 3,110 feet, five-tiered drop, Royal Natal National Park, seasonal flow, scenic hiking.




Victoria Falls, Devil’s Pool, Zambia


Victoria Falls, on the Zambezi River, the border of Zambia and Zimbabwe: 355 feet tall, 5,604 feet wide. The falls were traditionally known to the indigenous people as Mosi-oa-Tunya, or "Smoke that Thunders." Livingstone bestowed its more common name of Victoria Falls upon his visit for England's Queen Victoria. We feel it more appropriate to use the native name, as it is equally recognized in the region. The falls became a UNESCO World Heritage site in 1989.



Super scenic: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iywqpda7d8k


Blood Falls, Antarctica: iron-rich water, red hue, Taylor Glacier, unique microbial life, subglacial lake, extreme environment, scientific interest, visual spectacle.




Kerepakupai Merú aka Angel Falls, Venezuela: considered the world's tallest uninterrupted waterfall, with a guesstimated height of 3,212 ft, and a plunge of 2,648 ft. Remote Canaima National Park, named after aviator Jimmy Angel, stunning scenery. South Africa's Tugela Falls holds the official record for world's tallest waterfall.




Yosemite Falls, California: 2,425 feet tall, North America's tallest, three sections, Yosemite National Park, peak flow in spring, iconic landmark. While the popular conception is that Yosemite is king, in reality it is only the top dog in California, not in all of the USA.




Iguazu Falls, Argentina-Brazil border: 275 cascades, 269 feet tall, 1.7 miles wide, UNESCO site, rainforest setting, breathtaking views. The majority of the river plunges into the "Garganta del Diablo" (the Devil's Throat) and together, they make up the largest waterfall system in the world. According to some waterfall experts, Iguazú Falls is the world's greatest waterfall.




Gullfoss Falls, Iceland: located in the Golden Circle, 106 feet tall, two-tiered cascade, glacial river Hvítá, stunning rainbows, protected site, major tourist attraction.




Niagara Falls (aka American Falls, Bridal Veil Falls, Canadian Falls) on the US-Canada border is both the largest waterfall by volume in North America and is without a doubt the most well known waterfall on the planet thanks in part to its portrayal in Hollywood, the presence of approximately 2 million people living in the Buffalo-Niagara area and the largest city in Canada being situated less than 2 hours away.

Niagara Falls, US-Canada border: three waterfalls, 167 feet tall, 2,600 feet wide, major tourist attraction, hydroelectric power, breathtaking views, boat tours.